Done with excuses

I could find all kinds of reasons for not keeping up with my writing, looking after myself, keeping in touch with friends and family................................... but truth is I'm responsible for what I do with my life.  If I have any hope in helping those around me or even have them pay attention to what I say I need to be a good model, someone they look at in a positive way I need to change me.  The truth is that I been coming from the point of view of whats gone wrong and how to improve it.  Even when it comes to my own life.  To be honest I've had some successes along the way.  Now that doesn't seem enough.  Now I'm hoping to focus on where I am and what can I do.  I love my friends and family but if I am ever going to continue on my walk I need to allow them to do the same.  That doesn't mean I don't care but we all need to make our own choices.  That doesn't mean I won't be there for them but I need to learn to stand back and let them live.  This is not easy.  I'm by nature a control freak and have always believed that the world would be a better place if I planned everything.  Now I'm happy to plan each moment of my life and if I can help someone in the process I'm good with that.  If you need me I will still be there just not taking over to solve the problems of the world.